For me, quite simply, it's just a means to try to make sense of the entire wedding experience. First off, I'm already married. So this blog isn't about the preparation and all of that. It's more of a healing process. You see, I somehow managed to get through my wedding with my sanity and convictions intact. Just.
I didn't have any real expectations of my wedding, or the wedding day. I held no expectation because I actually never thought I would get married. I grew up believing in the institution of marriage but knowing it wasn't for me. I thought that I'd find a soulmate and live happily together not being married, because marriage meant joining an outdated, ultra-conservative and sexist institution.
So...I don't know exactly what happened to me in between the time that I started planning my wedding to the day that I checked out of the hotel where we had our wedding reception when I realised that I had mistake.
I'd like to make it clear that this entire blog is about my working through what I consider to be a major event in my life, an event that I enjoyed in many ways but that I also found traumatic and unnatural in others. It's this latter part, the traumatic aspect, that I'd like very much to explore and to understand so that I can move on from it and close that chapter. So that I won't, in a year's time, ever talk about it all ever again. Wink. Let's see... I guess what I'm trying to say is that although my posts are on the negative side, I'm not at all trying to take away from the beauty of weddings.
This blog is about my healing process, my working through. As my grandmother would have said, it's just a good old cry about all sorts, really.
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